how i feel about it sometimes: 3rd day of school edition
when i get nervous in a group of people, i overtalk. i do this to open up the lines of communication, make people feel at ease with me, and feel out the possibility that they think i’m their new bff, which i want EVERYONE TO FEEL. always. i’m a bit of a new-situation people-pleaser.
unfortunately, i do this at school in small classes, especially with professors who i want to like me. which is, like, all of them at this point, because i’m officially a senior. or, if i’m feeling fiestastic, senor! ole!
see that? that bit of lame joke right there that i think is amusing? this is what i do in class. i pipe up in class, entirely too often. i can’t stop. if i don’t get a response to something, i JUST KEEP TALKING. while talking, i gesticulate even more wildly than normal, which looks preposterous because i have mittens which attach with a stringthrough the sleeves of my winter coat which i wear every day(so i don’t misplace them like a 5 year old), so it looks like i have crazy extra mime hands talking.
i am unfamiliar with these new people to whom i want to endear myself, so i talk about the only subject about which i am an expert: me.
i have become one of the special people this week.